CONTROL

Funny thing...this little word, control. It can make everything seem great, right, or perfect, but when you lose control, it feels like as if the world is falling in. I am a type A personality, and I like to be in control. I was a kindergarten teacher before I was a stay at home mom, and in a class of precious and sweet 4 & 5 year olds, I was the one in control. Now that I am not in control of my body (although I probably never was to begin with), I find my self trying to control other aspects of my life to regain control. I want to be steering this ship. But I have realized its all PERCEPTION. I never had control. I have to trust that God is in control and I just have to hang on for the ride....even if its bumpy.

Hardest thing in my life...is not being in control.